get over yourself.

it want my fault.

i didnt even notice anything.

so go fuck yourself and live a happy life.
have fun.

nobody seems to know me.
everything i do seems like such a fucking SURPRISE.
well then thats too bad, eh?
too bad for me.
its always like that.
always will be.
its always on me.

no matter what it is. if its with friends. parents. the rest of my family.
i'm always the one to blame.
its like i got a fucking sign on my forhead that says
'ALL SIGNS SAY ITS MY FAULT, PUT THE BLAME ON ME'

too bad my forehead aint that big.
i'm a horrible fucking bitch.
so i'll have to square with that one day.
cos i cant now.

its not my fault. nothing ever is.
lets point the blame at the failed psycologist.
damn, thats what i'm gonna be.
ah well. at least i'm not denying it. right?

right now i am happy.
WTF you think.
told u everyone thinks everything is a fucking SURPRISE.
i'm a crazy nut.
but i can live with that.
plus i'm listening to BEP.
what am i spose to do other than dance?
=]

wow...long time.

again.

so umm, yes, anyways...

i feel so fucking hated. like nobody wants me. i feel like things left on the front lawn after a yardsale. like a child who's the only one left at the orphanage.
lucky for me, i dont know exactly how that feels.

christmas is coming up. joy...
life is as its always been. uncontrollable and hard to understand.
life is like that.

i dont ever want to feel like i did that day, take me to the place i love, take me far away.

i adore that song.

so many things have been going on, u know? it's driving me crazy. like all this shit with manda. i dont care any more. she pisses me off a lot but, OH MAH GOD. its too much. i dont want to deal with it.

u know whats sad? i cant remember any happy memories with my parents. from a long time ago. and it hurts, u know?

i dont know what to do.